OK, I thought I should pop in and give you an update on my job search on the Island and other things that have affected me this week.
First the boring bit, my MS and possible new symptoms. Firstly, have you ever had toothache or shingles? Yes, then you have some understanding of what neurological pain is like. Now, I have a mild degree of such pain in my fingers and hands all the time, along with intermittantly occuring paraesthesia in my toes. Sometimes if I am very tired or stressed I get numbness on the upper part of my left foot. All these pains are now part of my daily life and I have got used to them being there and work round them, or slow down if they get worse.
Over the last couple of weeks though I have noticed a horrible pricking pain in my left hip spreading up to my waist and down towards the groin. It feels just like I have stuck sharp needles in myself and they are still in there. No, its not just an annoying pins and needles like you get when you lay on your arm, but a horrible sharp, pricking PAIN akin to that suffered by people with shingles. Yes I do have to give myself injections three times a week, but not there and none of the needles have ever detached from the syriges. I can only assume that it is a relapse brought on by the stress of my jobseeking and rejection. Its hard to stay positive all the time, and yes I do have my share of tears when things just won't go right.
The trouble with MS is that you can never be sure if a pain or symptom is related or due to something else. Maybe I actually have shingles!? There is no rash or visable sign of anything that might be causing the pain, but I am rather, hmmm, well padded, shall we say in that area so it is a bit difficult to see. I haven't told my hubby as I'm sure he must get quietly annoyed at every little ache or pain I seem to suffer.
Will keep taking the co-codamol and gabapentin and hope the pain goes in a day or so. Sometimes I really hate this condition, just as I try to make something of my life it gives me a kick to remind me its there, and the worst thing is no-one can see that there is anything wrong with me. They all notice I'm very tall (at over 6 foot) and obese, but not the infertility, back pain, depression or MS. Mind you it makes you realise that there are so many people out there with unseen conditions too. Maybe that's why I find it difficult to judge people on first impressions, you never know what goes on inside the human body or brain. If you take something from this blog, please let it be that.
God Bless and sleep well all
Jen -x-x-x
